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Feelin’ Normal

It was an awesome start to the day. Well, not really until 6:10 am when I slipped into the pool for some laps. I can count on one hand the number of times I’ve swam in a 50-m pool. This would be the second. There’s something wonderful about paring down 1 k from 40 lengths to only 10 laps in an Olympic sized pool. It sounds much more manageable, right? As with most things in life, it’s all about perspective.

That’s the case with my writing as well. I could hit a point in the story that is a roadblock and a difficult problem to solve, or it could be an exciting, unanticipated plot twist. My characters could be causing difficulties or it’s just that I’m not listening and trying to force them in directions that they’re not meant to go. The key to staying optimistic and able to work on each novel is to remember that each situation can be seen in a positive light or a negative one. It’s when you start focusing on the damaging, critical perspective that things can quickly start slipping away. It’s hard being positive and optimistic all the time (trust me, I know) but at the end of the day, you can sit back and look at all you’ve accomplished. Life will be hard but that doesn’t mean you can’t learn to find the silver lining. There will always be some positive aspect even though there will be times when you have to look a little harder for it. This is a lesson I’ve forgotten over the past few months.

The story is still intriguing and I’m still wondering where it’s going and what’s happening but I haven’t encountered the main problem yet. This is a little worrying due to the fact that the month is whittling away. I spent some time working last night and I think I’ve discovered the challenges my characters are going to have to face but I don’t want these issues to be the purpose of the story. They’re too gritty and graphic and depressing. I’m leaning towards making it the catalyst for the real hurdle instead but that won’t make the story any more enjoyable.

I’m too much of an empath and optimist to spend much time thinking about the darker side of human nature. It hurts and makes me sad but at the same time it’s a part of life. I shied away from it in October’s horror story so I’m going to do my best to confront these social troubles with this story. Nothing says it ever has to see the light of day or leave my computer. We’ll see how it turns out.

So, with this resolution, I have to mentally steel myself for the coming challenges and work through this barrier of wimpitude. The days of being a buttercup are over! It’s time I learn to be a marigold- sturdy and resilient yet fragile enough to ensure I will never turn into a cactus.

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